At ease

Finally, think I am almost fully recovered. No vomiting..no more diarrhea...just felt bit tiring...probably from traveling to and fro K.L to home and going out for classes/adventures even before I recovered fully...am going back home again tomorrow...to do my final round of ortho-putting on retainer...

It's amazing I can feel so at ease without a job...I guess there come a point where after working and studying for some years, and complaining about wanting to have a break finally is here...guess I wasn't as anxious as I was, trying to fill my life with activities...this time around...really just rest...doing the things I really enjoy about. It may really sound useless...but this is the time when dreaming become a reality and we should embrace it more gracefully...travel all you want, dream all you want, lazy around all you want...coz sooner or later, we need to be serious again..and by then, life goes on...and no longer living a life and thinking about another...live for the moment.

Jazz - Besame Mucho

Sigh...really want to go for a Jazz bar now...

True?

Sometimes we ask ourselves too much questions that we felt paralyzed with uncertainty and fear to do what we ought to do and tend to feel.

At my age now, after so many failures (mainly coming from a few after grad exams), I finally got it, why people with so much credentials are more fearful and sensitive with how and what they do and the response they get. This is mainly because they think they have much to protect and much to lose.

I know how it feels and I know how bad it can be. From now on, I choose to leave truthfully, more truthfully than what I can. If it is not meant to be, so be it. All the glories are tying me down and weighting me down more than I ever have imagine. At least, I know who can I refer to as a model guidance...be truthful with yourself, and the world will be true to you.