Why?

Haha...

Beautiful Maria of My Soul

Gosh, the song is so nice and the guys are so hot!

Conversation between alphabelts

hahaha...

Letter to my friend

Hi girl,

How's life? When you guys going to Singapore?

My final exam will end at 19Dec08, now still have 2 projects to complete...am feeling a bit tired and out of steam to complete it.

Argh...tired...just wish we can have more rest here, hate the competition in class. We are suppose to have fun learning...not stress right.

Today, one of the visiting professor ask us this normal but a questions that I have not been thinking about for sometime...and he asks us to answer in 5 second time.

1. What is your goal in life?

2. What is love?

Seriously, can anyone answer them seriously in 5 sec?

I am wondering about the questions why people are always not satisfied with what they have again.

Why the grass seems always to be greener on the other side?

How can we appreciate what we have more here and now?

Why do we always have to look forward to the future in anticipation?

Why do we always have to look backward for remisniscence of good time, good memories?

You must think I am crazy if I tell you I miss the time working...yea..the job and work we always complain about.

I miss the freedom felt after work, I miss the time we hang out and have dinner, soup or movie after work, complaining about our job and work.

Miss the time we go shopping during weekend...somehow, studying is a complete defferent thing, you gotta watch yourself even after school or during weekend...

It's been only 2 months, but I already felt so tired...maybe I am getting old and the zeal to become better or more successful is diminishing...it's scary sometimes...

Wish everything is allright at your side. You planning to visit Japan or US (since HT is going) next year?

I've decided to take 1 month off from school next spring break (March08), not sure yet if I want to do field study or research yet, but at this moment, I'm thinking of taking that break to travel.

If you have plan to go to US, maybe we can go together.

Take care girl. Merry Chrismas ya. Can't believe that year 2008 is coming to an end soon.

Jesus, time flies...

Regards,

xoxo

Why?

Am so tired now. Why? I don't know, just don't feel like doing anything but sleep. I can't do that but I am feeling that. Shit. Anyone have any cure for laziness?

Today in class, one professor want us to think about these 2 questions and answer them in 5 seconds:-

1. What is your goal in life?
2. What is love?

No, it is not philosophy class, it's knowledge management class.
I can't answer them in 5 seconds. I just wonder why people always do not appreciate what they have until it's gone and why does the pasture in the other end always looks greener?

New Soul

Enjoy!

Talking in class

I really miss my friends...I want to go home. I felt that my effort in doing my homework and assignments were wasted. I've spent the whole night finishing up my assignments but unable to utter a single word in the class. huh...it sucks! I tell myself that it does not matter as I know that life is not fair and we will not always get the chance to speak in class and it's really a stupid thing to do to lose my self-confidence because the professor just don't want to hear what it's in your mind.

I guess 27 years of living to my best and always has been my best has faced a road block here, not because I'm lazy, less intelligent or something but it's the same thing as happened in our everyday life, that no men is an island, no matter how talented, how smart you are, if you are not up to the society par, what ever it might be defined as, example: rich enough, pretty enough, lucky enough, know enough people, articulate enough, social enough, you are not likely to make it to success by your own effort. It is possible, just harder and take longer time.

I'm tired of this feeling. I just want to go home now and don't feel like doing anything. So what if I prepare like hell? Sleep for 3 hours? I'm not going to get any fucking A coz I have to rely on other people to determine my grade. So what it I score for the rest of the 30% for mid term or final? The bulk of the grading still come from class participation, I will be laughing my way to the bank already as long as I don't get a C. Can I say this is introvert discrimination? They are trying to discriminate people who are introvert, don't have much confidence in speaking out in class and etc. I find that I didn't improve on my weakness and nor does enhance my strength...ahh...screw...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...
enough money within her control to move out,
rent a place of her own,
even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
something perfect to wear whether the employer,
or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
re-telling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
one friend who always makes her laugh.... and one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMEN SHOULD HAVE...
a feeling of control over her destiny....

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone.... even if she doesn't like it...



EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she should dn't take it personally...


EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
what she can and can't accomplish in a day ....
a month...and a year...

THE FIVE MINUTE MANAGEMENT COURSE

Lesson 1:

A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings.

The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs.

When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbor.

Before she says a word, Bob says, 'I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.'

After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves.

The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs .

When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, 'Who was that?'

'It was Bob the next door neighbor,' she replies .

'Great,' the husband says, 'did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?'

Moral of the story:
If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.


Lesson 2:

A priest offered a Nun a lift.

She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg.

The priest nearly had an accident.

After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg.

The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?'

The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again.

The nun once again said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?'

The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.'

Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way.

On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.'

Moral of the story:
If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity .

Lesson 3:
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp.

They rub it and a Genie comes out.
The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.'

'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk. 'I want to be in the Bahamas , driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.'
Puff!: She's gone.

'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.'

Puff! He's gone.

'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager.

The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.'

Moral of the story:
Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 4
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing.

A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?'

The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.'

So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story:
To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 5

A turkey was chatting with a bull.

'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.'

'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.'

The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree.

The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch.

Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree.

He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story:
B *l l S ** t might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there...

Lesson 6

A little bird was flying south for the winter.. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.

While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.

As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.

The dung was actually thawing him out!

He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.
A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate.

Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story:
(1) Not everyone who s # its on you is your enemy.

(2) Not everyone who gets you out of s # it is your friend..

(3) And when you are in deep s # it, it's best to keep your mouth shut!



THIS ENDS THE FIVE MINUTE MANAGEMENT COURSE

Roses

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!


"Today is world's online buddy day. Send this to your online friends even me if I'm one of them
And see how many you get today"
10 Roses for You.
You are receiving these roses because you are a special person! Each rose symbolizes a special wish from me to you.
One Rose for Long Friendship

One Rose for Unconditional Love

One Rose For Financial Wealth

One for Everlasting Happiness

One for Success

One for Knowledge

One for Beauty, inner and outer

One for Family

One for Honesty

And the last one for a long and healthly life

Bible verse

Provided by Christ Notes

Blessed are the undefiled in the way, Who walk in the law of the Lord! Blessed are those who keep His testimonies, Who seek Him with the whole heart!

Psalm 119:1-2 (New King James Version)

Famous quotes

• " With the force of 3million investors RIL will reap the title "World's Biggest Company"
• "I am deaf to the word "no"."
• "Growth has no limit at Reliance. I keep revising my vision. Only when you dream it you can do it."
• "Think big, think fast, think ahead. Ideas are no one's monopoly"
• "Our dreams have to be bigger. Our ambitions higher. Our commitment deeper. And our efforts greater. This is my dream for Reliance and for India."
• "You do not require an invitation to make profits."
• "If you work with determination and with perfection, success will follow."
• "Pursue your goals even in the face of difficulties, and convert adversities into opportunities."
• "Give the youth a proper environment. Motivate them. Extend them the support they need. Each one of them has infinite source of energy. They will deliver."
• "Between my past, the present and the future, there is one common factor: Relationship and Trust. This is the foundation of our growth"
• "We bet on people."
• "Meeting the deadlines is not good enough, beating the deadlines is my expectation."
• "Don't give up, courage is my conviction."
• "We cannot change our Rulers, but we can change the way they Rule Us."
• "Dhirubhai will go one day. But Reliance's employees and shareholders will keep it afloat. Reliance is now a concept in which the Ambanis have become irrelevant."

Great

Funny

Have a pleasant day

Interesting quote from the movie 'Why did I get married?'
In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of
what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in
your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that
you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking
in your relationship that you WANT And believe me, 20% looks really
good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.
But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good
80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something
better with the other 20% that you WANT
But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with
having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED
and that you already had.
Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.



Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. 'Wow,
this girl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider
features that got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also
understanding, intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is
not'

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be more
charming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have
greater sex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you
and pursue you and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have
80% of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband
or wife looks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic
by nature.

You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh
no matter what she says: 'I broke my arm yesterday, Hahahaha . . ..'

Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling
of garlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young sales
representative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high
heels, and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet
type, your heart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame
who has the makings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all
the years that you have been with each other. The storms you have
weathered together. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a
couple. The many adjustments you have made to love the other. The
wealth of memories that you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.

But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you
already have.

But I'm not just talking about marriage.

I'm talking about life!

About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.

Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks
through the door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's
missing? 'They have got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in
porcelain! Wow, their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got
personal videos!'

I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your
life like that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do
you know that there are many first class passengers who are miserable
in first class -- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?

The main message???

If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are,
you are first class!

Have a pleasant day

mobile

The domestic phone-bill was exceptionally high.

This prompted the man of the house to call for a family-meeting after dinner.

Dad :

People, listen carefully, this high usage of our telephone is unacceptable.

You have to limit the use of it.

I do not use the home telephone at all, because I use the one at my work-place.

Mum :

Same here.

I hardly use our home telephone as I also use my office's telephone.

Son :

Me too.

I never use the home phone.

I always use the mobile provided by my company.

Then they all looked at the foreign maid.

Maid :

So, what is the problem, huh ?

Don't we all use our work-place telephones ?!!!

Bible verse

Provided by Christ Notes

But when they arrest you and deliver you up, do not worry beforehand, or premeditate what you will speak. But whatever is given you in that hour, speak that; for it is not you who speak, but the Holy Spirit.

Mark 13:11 (New King James Version)

Daily bible

Provided by Christ Notes

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? ... I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:35,38-39 (New King James Version

Japanese Dance-Sakura

My Japanese Culture Class this week is on Japanese Dancing. It is really fun, have a look at the attached video.

Unfortunately, after having fun in the class, I lost all my cards on my way back-student card, dormitory card, laundry card, photocopy card and traveling card...what a day!

Daily bible

Provided by Christ Notes

Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst."

John 6:35 (New King James Version)

Odaiba

It feels like it has been ages since I've been here in Tokyo. Time crawl by everyday but yet it has been 50 days since I am here. Odaiba is really a very beautiful city, too bad that we have been so busy that we do not have the time to enjoy the scenery here.

Sometimes while flipping through my friends face book of the photo taken while they visit Japan, I envy them much coz they actually been to more interesting places in 1 week compared to my 7 weeks here in Japan.

I wish that the classes will slow down more and there will be more time for us to catch a good night sleep and perhaps a stroll in the cities here.

What is she doing here

Black bean tea...as black as my week...

Today, she's feeling extremely happy with her results, she is proudly the upper 30% of the class and is considered to be the smart one in her class.

or not...

yea, I am not doing that well here, the above mentioned didn't happen and the opposite does happen. Really am feeling very depressed here. This is definitely not happening. Maybe what they said is true, past performance does not mean everything or anything...Well, I just can't believe that all this is happening.

I am really wondering what am I doing here? I should have taken up the scholarship for my MSc than a MBA, I really am not cut up to speak or participate actively in class, it has been a depressing week here...maybe I should not try so hard so that I feel better when I get bad results, at least no effort is wasted here.

Damn, why I have to worry about speaking up in class everyday? This is so ridiculous... why am I being so pessimist all the time, I want to share happy news very much here but it seems impossible to do that...and I wonder why...

God, can you please shows me a way to do this, I really need some enlightenment and help...human being are really selfish, we always hope for things to go our way...only the lucky one get what they wish for...

Monkey

If anyone has difficulty understanding the current world financial situation, the following should help....

Once upon a time in a village in India , a man announced to the villagers that he would buy monkeys for $10 each. The villagers seeing there were many monkeys around, went out to the forest and started catching them.

The man bought thousands of monkeys at $10 each, but, as the supply started to diminish, the villagers stopped their efforts. The man further announced that he would now buy at $20 each. This renewed the efforts of the villagers and they started catching monkeys again.

Soon the supply diminished even further and people started going back to their farms. The offer rate increased to $25 per monkey and the supply of monkeys became so little that it was an effort to even see a monkey, let alone catch one!

The man now announced that he would buy monkeys at $50 each! However, since he had to go to the city on some business, his assistant would now act as buyer, on his behalf.

In the absence of the man, the assistant told the villagers: "Look at all these monkeys in the big cage that the man has collected. I will sell them to you at $35 each and when he returns from the city, you can sell them back to him for $50 each."

The villagers squeezed together their savings and bought all the monkeys.

Then they never saw the man or his assistant again, only monkeys everywhere!

(The current financial crisis has AGAIN left millions of MONKEYS everywhere !!!!)

Welcome to WALL STREET.

My memory

Japan's soup cup.

My breakfast

Gun drops...looks like fire fly in Miyazaki's anime...

It's been 45 days since arrived at Tokyo. I'm starting to miss Malaysia very much. The food, the friends, my roommates, the familiarity of a routine office work and mum. Mum has been a very great part of my life and I do miss her dearly. When I was in Malaysia, I will go back home at least once a month, but now it has since been 2 months...I am grateful that Edison invented electricity and telecommunication come along...at least I still can talk to her when I felt alone.

Daily Bible verse

Provided by Christ Notes

I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live.

Deuteronomy 30:19 (New King James Version)

Two Horses

Two Horses
Author - unknown

Just up the road from my home is a field, with two horses in it.



>From a distance, each horse looks like any other horse. But if you stop your car, or are walking by, you will notice something quite amazing....

Looking into the eyes of one horse will disclose that he is blind. His owner has chosen not to have him put down, but has made a good home for him.


This alone is amazing.


If you stand nearby and listen, you will hear the sound of a bell.
Looking around for the source of the sound, you will see that it comes from the smaller horse in the field.

Attached to the horse's halter is a small bell.

It lets the blind friend know where the other horse is, so he can follow.



As you stand and watch these two friends,
you'll see that the horse with the bell is always checking on the blind horse,
and that the blind horse will listen for the bell and then slowly walk
to where the other horse is,
trusting that he will not be led astray.


When the horse with the bell returns
to the shelter of the barn each evening,
it stops occasionally and looks back,
making sure that the blind friend isn't too far behind to hear the bell.





Like the owners of these two horses,
God does not throw us away just because we are not perfect
or because we have problems or challenges.

He watches over us and even brings others into our lives
to help us when we are in need.

Sometimes we are the blind horse
being guided by the little ringing bell of those who God places in our lives.

Other times we are the guide horse, helping others to find their way....

Good friends are like that you may not always see them, but you know they are always there.

Please listen for my bell and I'll listen for yours.
And remember...
be kinder than necessary-
everyone you meet is fighting
some kind of battle.

Live simply,
Love generously,
Care deeply,
Speak kindly....
Leave the rest to God

Wrong

People are complicated animal...

Just want to say that I've totally been wrong about judging people from little information that I know. Really appreciate those people who work without judging other people. There are a few believes that I hold dear to and have serve me well in certain circumstances seems to prove me wrong in the others...

My sincere apologies to those who I have intentionally/unintentionally judged and apology to myself too for missing out of so much things, mental/physical in life because of my ill-judgment on things in life.

Will try to be more open, mind and physical...though I know it's hard to do....but life is always about experiencing and having the ability to learn from our mistakes and think/improvise.

Thank God for that...cheers.

21 good words

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.


TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.


THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.


FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.


FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.


SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.


SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.


EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.


NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.


TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.


ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.


TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.


THIRTEEN! .. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'


FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.


FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.


SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.


SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.


EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.


NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.


TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice


TWENTY- ONE. Spend some time alone.

Blog readability

Movie Reviews

Bible Verse

Provided by Christ Notes

Surely He scorns the scornful, But gives grace to the humble.

Proverbs 3:34 (New King James Version)

Uhm, I am sorry I write the stupid post just now. I am really very frustrated sometimes. Sometimes I feel that I don't even understand myself...and yes, my worst enemy is myself...

Things that happened in my class...daily

Scenario 1:
Intimidating professor asks questions.

My reaction:
Should I answer this? Uhm...if I answer this nicely, I will earn point for my class participation and this will eventually contribute to my point.

My alter ego:
The answer is so obvious...do I need to even think and answer?

As time pass, my chances if answering diminishes due to:-
1. This is really no brainer question...am I at the right class...
2. Shit, if I don't asnwer according to what he's looking for, he will not call me ever again...to answer any questions in class.
3. Some smart ass classmates just took my point or said something that is close to what I meant...

Me wanting to be nice and do not want to waste other people's time think that I better not answer such questions or entertain this professor.

Scenario 2:
Nice professor asking questions in class...

My reaction:
Shit, this question is so easy, I can answer that, but I'm not sure...coz I didn't spend much time reading the assigned reading as this professor is nice/not intimidating enough...

shit, opportunity wasted.

My alter ego:
I came to MBA class expecting to learn something much, and I have a 1st class honors in decision science, pass my CFA, pass my PKMC (dealer exam), will be attempting FRM...and this is what you are teaching me? No value add? So, what am I doing in this class??? I am not going to answer your stupid questions...

and THIS kind of thoughts went through mw for the whole 2 hours of the class with me getting agry and angrier by the second...shit, luckily I was paid to do this...if not, I would have leave and just do my MSc in Financial Engineering at UK...which is offering me full scholarship too...

Scenario 3:
Who ever he/she is professing...

My reaction:

I am too sleepy to concentrate on what you said. Can you please stop lecturing and let us go home?

My alter ego:

This is so lame, can you asks me more challenging questions? coz you bored me to death and I am half asleep here dy...asks things that is hard, so that I can prove how intelligent I am and how stupid my fellow classmates are...

hahaha....

Scenario 4:
I was called to answer question

My reaction:
Mind went blank...all the "powerful" speeches/rationals that I have in my head vaporized...and all the outcome is some comments that I don't think clearly represent what I wanted to say.

My alter ego:
Are people getting what I am saying? Why nobody seems happy to hear my comment? Is my answer so bad or do I have problem making people understand what I am trying to say?

Scenario 5:
Didn't raise up my hand coz I think the answer I have in mind is too lame.

My reaction:
Well...never mind, maybe my opinion does not matter.

Eventually, the answer that the professor give is exactly the same as what I was thinking...

My alter ego: Wanting to kick myself at the head for not saying it out loud in class...and now I have to bear the anguish inside coz the professor said nobody think of it...well yea...because I didn't say anything, I am indeed NOBODY...

Scenario 6:
I answer the question nicely and a few minutes later another person talk about it either exactly the same way or similarly and draw appreciative sign, nods, and ohh ahh from others.

My reaction:
uhm, isn't this what I said? Am I not saying it clear enough? Am I not getting through people?

My alter ego:
Shit, didn't anyone understand what I was saying? or was I talking rubbish? Demotivate, demotivated...

and you know what? I am just starting to feel myself getting lazier and demotivated. Shitlar, there goes my grade...I have always been 1 4 flater...and I know for sure now, I will not be becoz of this stupid system and my unyielding emotion and personality that don't allow me to change as much and as soon as I can.

Lazier:
1. No point in preparing cases late into the night....why? coz even if you want to speak up, the professor may not notice you and call on you.
2. So what if I don't speak in class? That does not mean I am inferior to anyone else in class...it's better than some people who only know how to talk and not how to work...I hate these people the most.

Demotivate:
1. Do I come here to talk myself out of college or am I here to learn something new? Coz besides feeling tired all time, I don't think I learn something new.
2. Am I making the correct choice in coming for MBA, instead of going for MSc at Imperial College of London or forgoing my chance to work in IPS Sandario with a month income of RM9k?

Well...guess it's too late to complain this much right? Shitlar...really shit...

The Plan

In the beginning was the Plan.

And then came the Assumptions.

And the Assumptions were without form.

And darkness was upon the face of the Workers.

And they spoke among themselves, saying, "It is a crock of shit, and it stinketh."

And the workers went unto their Supervisors and said, "It is a pail of dung, and none may abide the odour thereof."

And the Supervisors went unto their Managers, saying, "It is a container of excrement, and it is very strong, such that none may abide by it."

And the Managers went unto their Directors, saying, "It is a vessel of fertiliser, and none may abide its strength."

And the Directors spoke amongst themselves, saying one to another, "It contains that which aids plant growth, and it is very strong."

And the Directors then went onto the Vice Presidents, saying unto them, "It promotes growth and is very powerful."

And the Vice Presidents went unto the President, saying unto him, "This new plan will actively promote the growth and vigour of the company; with powerful effects."

And the President looked upon the Plan, and saw that it was good.

And the Plan became Policy.

This is How Shit Happens.

~{愛無分,愛有份}~

I love you mum!

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當我看完

百感交集

熱淚盈框

當我們窮於應付生活所需之時

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我妻子要我和另一女人約會！


結婚了廿一年後，我發現了一種別出心裁的方法，可以讓愛的火花永保新鮮。

不久以前 ，我和另一位女士約會，其實那還是我妻子的主意，

有一天她說：「我知道妳很愛她。」我很驚訝，立刻爭辯說：「但我愛的是妳呀！」「我知道，但你也愛她呀！」

我妻子要我去看的女士是我的母親。

她已經寡居了十九年，然而我忙碌的工作和身為二個孩子父親的責任，令我分身乏術，以致很少有時間和她相聚。

那晚，我打電話給她，邀約她第二天和我一起吃晚餐和看電影。

「怎麼了，你還好嗎？」她問道。

母親是那種會認為晚上那麼晚打電話，又突然邀約她，一定不會有什麼好事的人。

「我想如果有機會和妳單獨約會，一定很有意思。」我回答。

她想了一會兒，然後說：「我非常樂意。」

那個星期五下班以後，我開車去接她時，心裡有一點緊張，因為從未嚐試過這樣的約會。

當我到達她家時，我看她對這樣的約會，似乎也有一點緊張。

她在門內等著，身上穿著大衣，裡面那件禮服還是最後一次慶祝結婚紀念日所穿的呢！

她的頭髮還特意捲了一下，臉上的微笑像天使一般。

上了車後，她得意洋洋地說：

「我告訴我的朋友，我要和我的兒子外出約會，他們都好羨慕，迫不及待要聽聽我們約會的情形。」

我們去一家雖不豪華，但十分雅致，溫暖舒適的餐廳。

我母親挽住我的臂彎，好像第一夫人一般。

入座以後，我必須幫她看菜單點菜，因為她的眼睛現在只有大的字才看得見。

用餐一半時，我抬起頭來，看到母親正在凝視我，嘴角帶著懷舊的笑容說：「記得當你小時候，總是我為你看菜單的。」

「那現在妳正好可以休息，輪到我來為妳服務了。」我回答。

一面享用晚餐，我們一面聊天，聊得很愉快，談了許多最近幾年來，各自生命中的一些事。

我們聊得太久了，所以趕不上電影。當我送她回到家門口，她說「我要再和你一起外出，但下次讓我作東好嗎？」我答應了。

回家後，妻子問我：「你的晚餐約會如何？」

「非常有意思，比我想像的好多了！」~我回答。

幾天以後，母親因心臟病猝發而去世。這事發生得太突然了，讓我完全措手不及。

不久以後，我收到一封信，裡面是上次我和母親約會的那家餐館的一張收據，上面有一 張字條寫著：「我已先付了賬，因為我確定自己不可能再有機會去了，但我還是付了兩人份的賬 ──你和你的妻子。你絕對想不到那一晚的約會對我有多大的意義，我愛你。」

從那一刻起，我深深體會，一定要及時說：「我愛你」，並且要常常撥出時間給我們所愛的人。

世上沒有任何事比自然如來因緣和你的家庭更重要，多花時間和他們在一起，因為這些事絕不能拖延到「以後有時間時間的時候」。

「樹欲靜而風不止，子欲養而親不待」
是人生一大憾事。

聖經&佛經不是也告訴我們嗎？

「凡事都不可虧欠人，惟有懂得愛，要常以為虧欠，因為愛人的，就完全了律法或解脫了。」

~{愛無分,愛有份}~

Totoro on Piano

Really like totoro, this is to all studio Ghibli or Miyasaki San's anime lover.

甜言密語( 男人女人必看推薦)

我和老公是經由相親認識的，
不到三個月就訂婚，再三個月我們結婚了。
親朋好友還來不及搞清楚老公長得圓還是扁時，
我已 成了謝太太了 。
那年我二十六歲，很擔心自己嫁不出去；
而他，因工作繁忙，想儘快搞定終身大事，
我們都不想「浪費」時間在談情說愛上，
就「一拍即合」 結婚去！誰怕誰呀！

從小被長輩視為「在姊妹當中最醜、脾氣最壞」的我，
結婚後，在老公的讚美聲中逐漸蛻變。
早晨醒來，他發現我的枕頭濡濕了一片，
就說：「好可愛喔，像小貝比一樣，還會流口水呢。」
當我洗衣服，不小心把他上班穿的白襯衫染成粉紅色，
他說：「看起來好性感哪。」

炒菜忘了加鹽巴，他說 ：「少鹽少油多長壽啊。」
我剛學著幫他理頭髮時，總讓他的頭頂東禿一塊西禿一塊，
他仍然一副不在意的樣子去上班。

第一次參加老公公司舉辦的旅遊活動，
遊覽車開到梨山時，我已暈得七葷八素、奄奄一息，
老公卻興致���勃的忙著取景為我照相。
我有氣沒力的蹲在路邊，早已無心欣賞美景，
老公突然大喊 ：
「老婆，快來！快來！妳看這些粉紅色的蘋果，
和妳的臉蛋多麼相襯啊 ，我幫你們照一張。」
頓時，周遭的人大笑 ，
我原本蒼白的臉，瞬間紅得可媲美蘋果。

老公常一語驚人，
有一次當著娘家媽媽和眾姊妹的面說 ：
「珍珍的皮膚愈來愈美了，就像『芙蓉豆腐』一樣光滑。」
正在喝湯的媽媽聽了，差點一口噴出 ，
妹妹更笑得無法繼續吃飯< lang="ZH-TW" style="'FONT-SIZE:"> 。

誰都知道，我的皮膚有輕微的魚鱗癬，
一年四季都在脫屑，粗糙的手指像梅乾菜一般枯皺乾癟，
然而老公對這樣異於常人的「玉手」，
不但經常握著，還放到臉上摩挲，
一邊讚嘆 ：「多麼柔軟細嫩的小手啊 。」

難怪妹妹說：「姊夫真是典型的『 眼精皮被牛屎糊住』的人。」
連久未見面的親友聚會時，媽媽介紹我們四姊妹，
長輩看到小妹時總是說：「哦，最小的這個最漂亮。」
老公在旁插嘴 ：「您弄錯了，最漂亮的已經被我娶走了。」
小妹抗議：「 姊夫睜眼說瞎話的功力，誰也比不上啦。」

孩子小的時候，我們的生活平淡而單純，
最大樂趣是上街壓馬路 。
那時，老公一手牽著女兒，另一手牽著我橫越馬路。
由於人潮洶湧，老公緊緊攬住我的肩膀走過去。
「咦，小貝呢？」回頭一看，女兒還站在對街，
一臉茫然的望著我們 。

我登時勃然大怒，狠狠瞪著老公 。
老公火速將女兒抱過來，陪笑說 ：
「對不起，我一心只想到自己的老婆，差點忘了別人的老婆。」
我聽了忍俊不住的笑出來，
女兒才五歲，怎能稱為「別人的老婆」 ？

細火慢燉好滋味 甜蜜婚姻已20 年

有一次全家到郊外踏青，看見路旁一叢美人蕉，
我說：「小時候我最喜 歡吃它的花心了。」
老公一副恍然大悟的樣子 ：
「難怪妳會變成大美 人，原來是吃美人蕉長大的呀。」

在漫長婚姻生活中 ，甜言蜜語只能當作點綴，
偶爾給一成不變的日子爆些小火花；
老公對我的好，並不光靠一張嘴，他的體貼表現在實際行動上。
每逢冬天，我的手腳總是冰冷，
睡覺前，老公一定搶先跳上床，把我的位置躺暖了 ，
才叫我窩進去，又用他熱呼呼的大腿夾住我的雙腳，
得意的說：
「我們家根本不必買烘被機，我就是妳超大型的烘被機了。」
媽媽知道了，取笑他：
「 古時候有二十四孝，你這是第幾孝呀 ？」

在老公的寬容與甜言蜜語中，我慢慢改變了我的壞脾氣，
走路也不再彎腰駝背，而是如空姐般閃現自信的光采 。

今天早上，老公上班之前，在門口玄關與我擁抱，
輕聲說 ：「為什麼我總是如此迷戀著妳 ？」
啊！我才想問老公：
「為什麼結婚二十年了，你的甜言蜜語還是說不完 ？」

婚前，我們沒時間好好談戀愛；
婚後，我們用一輩子的時間，
細火慢燉這婚姻的滋味，愈陳愈香 。

【 2007/01/10 聯合報】

不僅老公該對老婆灌迷湯 ,老婆也該回饋老公甜言蜜語, 稱讚老公為家的辛勞付出;
既然兩人決定共同扶持過生活, 說好聽的話增進彼此生活情趣, 不花一毛錢又可和樂融融,
皆大歡喜 ,何樂而不為呢 !
存好心 ,說好話, 做好事,; 為值得的人做值得的事

uhm, it's not easy to meet such a person, this lady in the article is so lucky.
God bless!